Mental Health Check: Suicide Awareness Month

It’s interesting that Chiari Malformation Month and Suicide Awareness Month go hand and hand.

People see Chiari Malformation as a common thing with an easy fix. People see suicide as the easy way out.

There is nothing easy about either and one can cause the other, but even worse, both can destroy more than the person dealing with it.

In many cases, there is a lot of selfishness surrounding these two things, but it isn’t selfishness from the person struggling through the symptoms of Chiari or the person who wants to end their existence.

While there is so much understanding and patience required of the people on the outside, some can make the situations all about them instead of the person who needs help.

Whether the person who is drowning in their own empty well is you or someone you love, don’t give up.

You matter.

They matter.

If you can’t find the support you need in your own tribe or are feeling overwhelmed, there is support out there.

Please call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline (Lifeline) at 1-800-273-TALK (8255), or text the Crisis Text Line (text HELLO to 741741) if you or someone you know is in crisis.

If you want or need additional information, please visit the NIMH website.

For those who are trying to help, but don’t know where to start.

First Surgery Follow Up

September 7, 2021

I’m no sure why the glow from outside is so…rounding on me, but there is a smile on this face under that mask!!

Windows down and a beautiful sunny day without sunglasses has me feeling all the wonderful feels as I wait to see the doctor that got all the right balls rolling for me!

The doctor was impressed with my incision and how great I was looking overall.

Next appointment is with the surgeon.

Almost two weeks out of the surgery and the realization that I’m miles ahead of where doctors thought I’d be already has me wanting to do cartwheels!!🤸🏽‍♀️🤸🏽‍♀️🤸🏽‍♀️

“I am becoming the best version of myself and I overcome all obstacles.”

Daily Affirmation by @fitsara

Chiari Malformation Awareness

September is the Chiarians month to shine! Become aware today! If not for you, for the person you love that is suffering with this.

Too many doctors dismiss this. Too many people don’t understand this. The medical community is still learning about how this thing ticks.

Don’t be dismissive. Do your research! A DEEP look at Chiari Malformation will give us all a better understanding. Be compassionate and if you really care for the person you love, you’ll be supportive.

Advocate for yourself if no one else will. I know the darkness. It’s hard to escape, but please keep fighting!

The World Looks Different

I was in surgery on Wednesday, August 25, 2021. I didn’t realize how different and dark life was before. It all just looks different. With no effort, I had an amazing day yesterday. I enjoyed the people in my life and the most I had to worry about was being in pain and worn out.

I’m feeling the aftermath of yesterday’s great day, but I’m okay. I’m happy overall and able to get out of bed. One week ago, my life changed.

Today, I’m dealing with the heartbreak of a lost relationship. I’m not sure why it’s hit me so hard in this moment, but it’s hurting. Physical pain doesn’t compete.

Maybe it’s because I’m doing so well, I want to share it with everyone that’s ever known me, and still, my progress is not enough for people to love me again, but that goes back to worrying about what other people think.

This brings me full circle to enjoying my win. I’m doing so well. I can’t believe how blessed I am with such an amazing group around me, supporting me, cheering for me.

Currently, my pain and comfort are the biggest pitfalls of daily life. I want to do everything and go everywhere, but the big bright world wants me to heal. I don’t like taking the heavy meds. I’ve managed to cut the use down to half of what the doctors thought I should be at in a day.

I know, brain surgery and trying to not use pain meds sounds like a glutton for punishment, but I really don’t like the way they make me feel.

The dizziness of my life before has eased, making it easier to walk without holding onto anything. The clarity of my world is coming back to me and I can manage a sunny day without sunglasses. I am capable of writing a sentence again. My speech is back to normal and the words are coming more freely.

My health is getting overall better following brain surgery. I’m healing with the amazement of my family who could see how I was before and love where I’m heading now.

To get through the emotional turmoil inside, I’m doing my best to find the joy in every day. Surreal how easy it’s become. I can’t even believe what happened over the last few years and how I responded.

While I’ve continued to reflect on my life, I realized how truly blessed I am and every day is just getting better. People are better. Life is better. My world is better. I pray it continues to grow and make me smile.

I pray for love, compassion, peace, strength, life, and joy!

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